"What Do You Really Want?"

"What do you really want?" ... This was the recurring question that kept flashing in my mind this morning - sovereignly placed there, i believe, by the Holy Spirit. And that was my "burden" this morning as i thought within myself what is it - after all has been said and done - that i really want.

So, after some deliberate and honest pondering, this is what i came up with ...

"I want to be a man who truly knows, loves, and serves God:

A man after God's own heart -

One who sincerely loves and is devoted to God and His Word;

One who is captivated by His love and glory;

One who knows and understands His call;

One who is driven by His purpose;

One who is compelled by His love -

serving God by loving others with His love

and nurturing them in the faith through His Word."

Having come up with this, i've gotta confess that many questions also shrouded this heartfelt desire of mine ...

Whether or not i truly know, love, and serve God may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want;

Whether or not i sincerely love God and am devoted to His Word may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want;

Whether i truly know and understand God's call for my life may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want;

Whether i'm a man driven by God's purpose may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want;

Whether i'm one who is compelled by God's love may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want;

Whether i'm serving God by loving others and nurturing them in His Word may be a big question mark -

but that's what i want.

So many questions, so many doubts, so many concerns .... but in spite of all these uncertainties, there's one thing that i'm sure of:

This is what i really want!!!

"O Lord, make me such a man - one who serves and fulfills Your purpose in my lifetime!!!"